I wish to extend my apologies in advance if the following entry sounds disjointed, confusing or very non sequitur-like, as I wrote this draft yesterday afternoon and wish to be as faithful to it as possible.
This is the sort of post I would really appreciate some comments and suggestions for. The point of most of the following is to open and promote discourse. We urgently need discourse. Volunteer some!
Each small inconvenience done to myself or others seems to be a constant in-your-face reminder that seems to yell at me: Your visions are not congruent with what your senses observe. Why not? Why the failure at perfect happiness, each time? It seems so unjust.
I cannot avoid taking it at least somewhat personally with my theory of weak solipism (which I mix with basic idealism, try and figure THAT one out, I could try and explain but I still need to work on concept confidication).
It seems that solipsism is useful sometimes, but not entirely plausible.
It seems to follow Occam's Razor though.
If I am solipsistic indeed, why do I feel the need for validation? (I'm making this post. I obviously want to dissemminate it and have it appreciated).
I think I'm trying to reconcile my senses with my desires and am upset every time I fail. (This is not healty).
The problem is that, to reverse this trend, I shall need to bear the potential slippery slope of permitting imperfection. It will need to be done in secret, so that I may serve a good example to others.
It must not corrupt me and prove me hypocritical.
For though I try as often as possible not to be hypocritical. Hypocrisy seems to be the ultimate failure of the self (to be congruent).
It is very painful to be a hypocrite. (assuming you do not use denial)
One must necessarily use operant conditioning to 'punish' (in the context of Operant Conditioning) hypocrisy from all others, in order to discourage the behaviour and hopefully cause extinction.
Since congruence of experiential states seems to produce happiness - should be not embrace non-hypocrisy as a guiding principle, as with efficiency? It should keep everyone's states as happy as possible, which weill result in the best kind of growth for humanity. Humanity's purpose is then achieved, as the greatest net positive result has been sought, aspired to and completed as well as could have been done under the given circumstances.